Well.. Everything turns out to be like shit in the end. I thought that I will be able to forget everything today and really be happy. I guess I was wrong.. Well, at least I know that you will be jealous when I talk about them. You seems to be so concentrated on looking at your stuffs, so I just walked away so as not to disturb you. I can't always be there to disturb you can I ? And as for what happened in the theatre, I don't know why either. It is just that do you really don't want to listen to me that much ? Or maybe you were just kidding but I took it too seriously ? I don't know.. And thinking about it, my tears just rolled down. That aside, the reason that I didn't want you to send me home is actually because I feel so unimportant to you.. I know I am important to you, but I just feel that way alright ? It is like he wanted to have an impromptu meeting with you and you just changed our original plan for that. And yet when I suddenly say I want to meet you like on Friday, you said you will try after I said nevermind for several times. How do you explain this? And since you are going to change our plans so as to meet him, then why bother sending me home? Just to kill time? When you told me that you are also not meeting him so early, my heart totally broke.. That's the reason why you wanted to send me home? So that you wont have to wonder in cwp aimlessly? Originally, I still wanted to ask you if you wanted to eat dinner together. Thank god I didn't. At least then you would feel like you can't decided. Or am I thinking too much because you wouldn't even struggle to answer? You could just told me that you are eating with him right? Haix. Why am I saying until as though it is your fault? It isn't. It would never be. My healing heart broke again trice today. I really don't know what to do anymore.. Maybe we shouldn't even go out today. At least things won't turn out to be like that. At least I wouldn't need to know the truth.. And do you even know what I hate the most? I don't think you know. So I will tell you now. And I hate to be left alone the most. Whenever I am alone, I will be at a loss of what to do..
I really don't want.. But what can I do ?
Nonetheless, thanks for spending time with me today.
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