WOOHOO !!!!! RUNNING MAN !!!!!! CURRENTLY CRAZY OVER THIS SHOW CAUSE IT IS JUST SO DAMN NICE ! AND IT CAN MAKE ME FORGET ALL THE PROBLEMS ! CAUSE I WILL BE BUSY LAUGHING AWAY ! WOOHOOOOOOOOOO ! HAHAHAH ! I AM GOING CRAZY AGAIN ! HEHEHEHE ! WANTED TO WATCH ONE EPISODE TONIGHT BUT ME WANT TO SLEEP ! SO MAYBE TMR AFTER I DO MY HOMEWORK ! ^^

Hmm~ Best friend~ Does such a thingy exist ? What is it then ? If it is best, shouldn't it be just a single person ? Hmm~ Let me tell you a story. There is a girl named Tiffany. She had a best friend named Jenny. Both of them were very close until one day, Jenny had a new best friend. She was no longer always together with Tiffany. Also, even if she was together with Tiffany, all she will say about is her new best friend and her boyfriend of 3 years. Tiffany was very depressed as she had always put Jenny in the first place, and yet she was so easily being replaced in Jenny's heart. In the end, she got depression and committed suicide. How was this short story ? To tell you the truth, it isn't real. I just made it up myself. But things like that could happen in the real life. Anyway, do you know that kind of feeling when you and your best friend's boyfriend are very close, and the three of you have endless things to talk about ? Do you ? You don't ? It is okay. I don't either. :) Cause I don't have a best friend whom I am her best friend too. :) That's what forever alone actually means. :) And I am not gonna be like how I was anymore ! Had a great talk with baby boy today ! And yes, I WILL BE STRONG ! All these will pass soon ! It had already being one and a half year ! Why am I only feeling this now ? Maybe because as time passes, people start to show their true colours ? It is like no matter how hard I try, I can never attract someone's attention for even a split second. When I talk, no one is listening. When I am missing, no one cares. When they all are talking, I don't understand a shit. When I ask them, no one bother to answer me. In short, just forever alone ! No one wants to talk to me. No one needs me anyway. If I don't take the initiative to find them, at most they don't care about me only what. No big deal anyway. Since I can change anyway, I will learn to adapt to it then ! Since I doesn't have anyone who puts me in the first place despite me putting them there~

And I am neither.

HI PEOPLE ! I am back again ! But well, you should know that I normally complain ! So it is the same this time round ! I am just tired of living aright ? All I wanted to do is to disappear to somewhere where there is no one else but me~ Alright ! I admit I hate being alone. In fear, I am scared of being alone. But all these things that happened recently, just proved to me that it is better if I were to be alone. That way, there will be no one to hurt me~ I am tired of all the "friends" that I have. Cause all they do is to treat me like I am invisible. As though I don't exist on this world. Maybe that is because everyone hates me. I am just an ugly bitch with a bitchy attitude that no one likes. And I was complaining to him yesterday. Because I had no other person to talk to. Everyone has their own friends, their own bestfriends whom they can share everything with. What about me ? My teddy bear ? So I told him that. And he was willing to be my listening ear. Which was great. Finally someone who would listen to me complain about everything. But he doesn't allow me to be sad. Cause he wanted me to be happy. But that is a little impossible though. So i just told him I am fine and texted him normally, when in actual fact, I was crying. Sorry for lying to you though... And there is someone who is super paranoid. I didn't even say anything about him, then he complain complain complain. After that, he blamed everything to me. Like hello. Bitch please. Stop saying it is my fucking fault. Can't you reflect on yourself ? And other people say you you are okay with it. And what happens when I indirectly say something about you ? You complain and scold and whatsoever as though I just murdered you~ LOL ? Aiya whatever. No point being upset over such a bastard. That's why it is better to be alone. No one will care about you. Isn't that just so great ?

Hello ! I am back AGAIN ! Are you sure you want to read ? Below are just some crap that I don't think you really want to read anyway. Maybe you shouldn't even be wasting your time here~ But if you insist on reading, go ahead~

Yeah~ Seriously I am starting to think that way. That's why I didn't take as much as I used to~ In fact, I am just ugly. That's why of course I will look ugly in photos~

And of course,

Why would everything be ? Everything is just so wrong. And all I am doing everyday is just trying to laugh, act like nothing happen, so as not to let people who really care worry~ But actually, no one really care I guess~

I really really wish that I can be the old me who was always so cheerful~ What exactly happen to me ? I don't even feel like me anymore~ What I am doing everyday is just trying not to think about anything, so that those suckish feelings will not come back~ I am just trying not to cry everyday. Everytime a teardrop drops, I will wipe it off and remind myself I am not supposed to cry~ But sometimes I just can't control~
And seeing him with his friends make me really very jealous~ They are so bonded and they can do all the craziest things ever~ How great would it be if I have such friends too ? I wanted to be with them, cause only when I am with them, I will forget all my problems because of their craziness~ But at the same time, I feel like I am disturbing them~ Like I feel so extra~ Seeing them playing so happily and yet he is just there, beside me, unable to join them. And that's when I feel very guilty~ Haiz~

I am still very bored ! And I am supposed to be doing homework but don't want to do ! Just slacked a day away again~

Pretty Pictures ! ^^

I was just bored ! So here are pretty pictures of FASHION ! How I wish I can "download" these stuffs !