Pretty Pictures ! ^^

I was just bored ! So here are pretty pictures of FASHION ! How I wish I can "download" these stuffs !

  

I'm tired~

Tired of everything~

Tired of being unwanted~

Tired of crying everyday~

Guess I will be blogging more often since I've no one to talk to~

I don't want to trouble his with all my problems..

Soon to be me~

Hello~ ^^

Who don't need? And I am glad that I have that somebody beside me! ^^ Heheheheh! Someone who I can tell everything to, someone who I am cry to, someone who will listen to me, someone who will bear with me no matter how unreasonable I am, someone who I know will be there for me! Hehehehe! Others might say that we will break up sooner or later! But I know we can last long long! Right? ^^

Hehehehehe! Just wanted to say,

And these mugs are shooooooo COOL! Can I have them? >.<

Hehehehehe! And can I live somewhere that looks like this?

And I would want the view out of my window to be like this! Who don't want?

Hahahaha! Okay! Enough of daydreaming! Come back to reality! O levels are coming! Need to study harder! No more slacking! But I want to go shopping! And buy pretty clothes, shoes and accessories!

Hehehehehe! Anyway, recently when I was messaging him at night and I was very tired, I will just fall asleep without me even realising! >.< Because this is what I always do!

And then I will just accidentally fall asleep! >< Hahahaha! But when I am on the phone with him, though I do that too, but hearing his voice would wake me up! That.s why I don't fall asleep while talking to him on the phone! Hehehehe! Alright! Nothing much already! Studying is tiring! :( But as students, that's what we have to do! :( So.......................................... TOO BAD! 

MUAHAHAHAHA !

Hey peeps ! Alright ! I don't even think anyone bother to drop by here and read ! But either way, I will enjoy writing about bullshits here ! Twitter is no good ! Character limit and lots of judgmental people.
Hahhahaha ! Back to why I am here today ! Well.. CCA stand down already and we also step down already.. Still can remember the very first training we had.. The only people who I know is Lena and QiuHan cause they are from my class ! And now, we are quite bonded as a batch ! Four years went pass just like that ! See that woman up there in that picture ? She is my dancemate ! Though we might not dance the same dances, but nonetheless, we are great friends ! And if it wasn't because of dance, I wouldn't have known her either ! She is a great friend ! The one who will listen to me rant about everything and give the weirdest suggestions ever to overcome it ! We had so much fun in dance ! And all these had ended...
Alright ! Enough of being all sad because we are leaving something behind ! I made a new friend on Thursday ! ^^ Not really new though ! Knew him for quite some time already but just doesn't really talk to him much ! But now we are talking much more than we used to be ! And he can help me with some subjects while I help him in others ! Great isn't it ? We are going to ace O levels together ! ^^ WE CAN DO IT !
HAHHAHAHAHA ! And everytime I talk to him, I feel guilty.. Not really guilty, but just have a weird feeling.. I have a few guy friends who are very good to me. And I am fortunate to have them. At the same time, me and my boyfriend seldom talk. Not even on weekends anymore.. Weekends it will be either I am doing homework or he is doing homework or gaming.. Weekdays we both will be studying.. Screw you O levels.. You are turning my life upside down.. I HATE YOU ! Why must you exist ? Do you know how hard it is to ace O levels ? Thankfully, I have great friends with me.. And I really miss him a lot.. And I am scared that I will lose him someday.. I don want to lose him ! I want him by my side ! Forever and ever ! I don't care ! I just want him ! The thought of us breaking up is just so scary.. I don't want that to happen.. I am scared.. Really really scared.. But who can I tell all these that I am feeling now to ? No one ! I can only hide it to myself.. Bottle it up in myself.. And continue to smile like nothing happen. That's what I will do. Why ? For a simple reason. You can't be trusted anymore. I am sick and tired of you being hot and cold as and when you like.. Therefore, I am just going to be like you. Perhaps the reasons why I like weekends more is not only because I can take a tiny break from all these studying, but also a break from everyone. I can choose who I want to talk with during the weekends, and I don't have to face some people's attitudes. I am a happy girl during the weekends. But weekends are always so short.. Why ? I hate being the fake me ! But can I be the real me in front of you ? You will just end up blaming me for treating you like this like that blah blah blah... Please ! Who was the one who started it ? Since you love your friends, why bother about us ? Why bother about me ? And don't ya complain about me treating others better than you ! That's how you treated me first ! And I am just gonna be the fake me in front of you now ! The fake me that you wanted me to be ! I won't tell you all the unneccessary stuffs anymore. It doesn't seem like you care anyway. And you changed a lot since this year.. Who was the one who always tell me not to go for council stuffs last year ? And you yourself are getting so excited and are willing to pangseh your friends for an organization that will just die for soon. Even that day during the presentation, everyone was just wondering what is the presentation for ? It doesn't mean anything to us at all. Oh well. Whatever. Screw life. That's it. And I will just live everyday normally being the fake me. No more half real half fake me anymore.
Alright ! Shall go sleep now ! Before he kill me tomorrow ! HAHAHAHAH ! ^^

YOOHOO EVERYONE ! ❤ I AM BACK !

And that is exactly what I am going to do.  Whatever shit happens, no matter how unhappy or sad or angry or pissed off, I am just going to smile and act like nothing happen. Even if it is a war zone in my heart. And obviously I have my reasons for doing so...

Anyway, had been real busy recently. Every single day study study study. Can't even have a proper weekend due to the amount of homework and OVERDUE homework. I am free to be here today is due to the fact that next week is school holidays. But so what if it was the school holidays ? Being booked by the school from Monday to Friday. I am glad that they didn't take away my weekends. -.- It doesn't even feel like it is the school holidays. Even yesterday, most of the sec 4s doesn't feel like it is the last day of the term. Poor us.. :( And one term have passed. O level is nearer and nearer. The nearer it is, the more we have to study. Oh god.

And, I am going crazy ! HEHEHEHEHEHE ! Changed our seating arrangement so me and JiaLin are not sitting together in that windy spot anymore. My current seat is quite windy though. Just not as windy. And at least that crazy woman is diagonally from me ! ^^ And I can see him from where I am sitting ! Don't know if that is a good thing though. It just seems to be always distracting me. :( Must have self-control already ! Cannot be always looking out for him ! Must concentrate more on my studies ! Didn't do well for term tests. And the whole class kena scolding on Thursday.. So we made a point that our goals will be L1R5<20 for prelims and then tell the school in their face that we don't want to join their stupid club. HEHEHEHEHE ! I think we rock man ! And talking about him, all I can say is,

And that feeling just continue to stay in me.. Every fucking time when I see the two of you talking to each other, I just have that thought. That thought that maybe you should belong to her after all.. That thought that make me feel so useless, so unwanted, so not special. Somehow, I feel that you treat all the girls the same. And that makes me not special at all.. Or rather make me feel not special. And every fucking time I talk to you about her, it will miraculously end up being my fault. And I just have to smile and act like nothing happen, act like it doesn't affect me, when in actual fact it is tearing me apart.. And this is for you if you are reading this.

Yes,

And also,

But nonetheless,

And I will smile, because I can.