Hello ! I am back AGAIN ! Are you sure you want to read ? Below are just some crap that I don't think you really want to read anyway. Maybe you shouldn't even be wasting your time here~ But if you insist on reading, go ahead~

Yeah~ Seriously I am starting to think that way. That's why I didn't take as much as I used to~ In fact, I am just ugly. That's why of course I will look ugly in photos~

And of course,

Why would everything be ? Everything is just so wrong. And all I am doing everyday is just trying to laugh, act like nothing happen, so as not to let people who really care worry~ But actually, no one really care I guess~

I really really wish that I can be the old me who was always so cheerful~ What exactly happen to me ? I don't even feel like me anymore~ What I am doing everyday is just trying not to think about anything, so that those suckish feelings will not come back~ I am just trying not to cry everyday. Everytime a teardrop drops, I will wipe it off and remind myself I am not supposed to cry~ But sometimes I just can't control~
And seeing him with his friends make me really very jealous~ They are so bonded and they can do all the craziest things ever~ How great would it be if I have such friends too ? I wanted to be with them, cause only when I am with them, I will forget all my problems because of their craziness~ But at the same time, I feel like I am disturbing them~ Like I feel so extra~ Seeing them playing so happily and yet he is just there, beside me, unable to join them. And that's when I feel very guilty~ Haiz~